Friday, September 30, 2011

A Male Chastity Perspective

After achieving 29 days without an orgasm I feel that I have beat the sexual daemon within me.  I now see the world in a light.  My Master let me watch some porn and to my amazement I didn't even get hard.  I wasn't even interested in watching it.  Testing my mind I even tried to get into it, but I just couldn't achieve that mind state of thinking pornography was hot.  The funny thing was that when I was watching the pornography I saw these hot guys achieving orgasm after orgasm.  I thought to myself that they were slaves and I myself was free from the longing of orgasm.  My mind filled with happiness and an overwhelming feeling of accomplishment hit me!

I felt as if I had unlocked the secrets of life while watching pornography.  I was watching these guys thinking they were free, when in reality they were all slaves to the male orgasm.  Slaves to their penis's every will.  Me, I was free from the thoughts of having an orgasm anymore.  I didn't desire one, and hoped that I would never have another.  I didn't want to become addicted to the feeling of achieving orgasm.  I liked being chaste, and felt grateful that my Master had let me achieve this amazing state of mind.

As I went about my day I looked at all the guys walking around with their girlfriends.  I thought about all these straight guys were all in slaved by the same ideas and concepts of achieving orgasm.  Everything they did with their girlfriends walking around, holding hands, kissing.  All that they were giving these girls were lies.  All they truly wanted to do was for the girls to help them achieve orgasm.  It was the truth, I saw the snake in the grass all around me.  That sex daemon lurking in the back of all these testosterone loaded guys minds.  I felt so sorry for them, so guilty that I was once like them.  That I was lost in the trance of orgasm.

So, what have I achieved?  Ever since I have become chaste I have been using my time differently.  Where I would usually be watching porn and jacking off, I now had this empty time slot in my daily routine.  I didn't know what to do with it, so I set the outlet to painting.  Painting calmed me down, brought the world down into the minute details of the paint, and the paintbrush.  I never even knew that I was such a horrible painter, but I didn't care I enjoyed it and hope to get better.  Instead of achieving this useless orgasmic state, I now was achieving skills in painting.  After I finish my canvas I hope to start something new themed with my new perspective on life.  I'll get an image of it up once my second master peace is finished.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Emotional Roller Coaster

Today I feel so alone, depressed and like a slave that is forbidden to cum.  I have been trying to convince my Master to let me cum in hopes that it will pick up my mood, but his answer is no.  The candle holding the key to my KTB is still barely even burnt.  It seems that my chance of having an orgasm is not even going to happen this month, next month or even the month after that.

I feel like I'm stuck on an emotional roller coaster.  Some days I feel that somewhere deep inside me I secretly want to shoot the biggest load of my life.  Other days I feel that if I never want to cum again in my life.  It's a constant back and forth within my mind.  Mentally I fell spent, I don't know what is a true thought and what is a sexual thought.  I rarely even think anything is sexy anymore some days, other days I feel enraged with a sexual desire that feels as if it will never be fed. 

Already feeling extremely depressed, tonight my Master made me do something new for him.  He made me put on a web cam sex show with him.  We broadcasted for about an hour and he showed me off to his internet friends.  He showed them how obedient I was.  He took off the Kali's Teeth on cam but left on the cock ring.  When he tried to jack me off or turn me on I couldn't get hard.  The humiliation of being treated like a slave in-front of strangers made me feel like a dirty slut.  I did what the people in the chat room requested and got my Master off the way they wanted me too.  When he came on my face I thought the himulation was over until they made me eat my Masters cum off my face.  Everyone was calling me a dirty slut and told me that I was never aloud to cum again.  It was a very different experience, and my Master wants to do it again some time soon.  He said that he wants to make money off of me by performing for these people on webcam.  I have never felt so "used" before until tonight, I want to just cry my brains out, but I know that my Master wouldn't have that.  The psychological affects going on in my mind from being a slave are digging holes in my soul.  I am at a breaking point.  They say that there are five stages of grieving: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance.  I would have to say that I'm at the end of the line.  I keep getting stuck between depression and acceptance.  I just don't know if my mind will let me accept the truth, that I am not in controll of my own penis, or even sexual desires.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Mind Set

I have been in this Kail's Teeth Chastity Device for about a week now and haven't cum in 28 days.   I have noticed some  psychological affects of becoming chaste.  I have had to re-program my brain in ways to keep myself from having sexual thoughts.  Every time I would have some kind of sexual thought I would get hard and the pain from the chastity device would stop my thoughts.  I now feel that only after wearing the device for a week I have more control over my sexual thoughts.

With other chastity devices that don't work with the mind like the **-6000 or  silicon Euro chastity device I become a slave that longs to be released from chastity.  I become a sex puppy that is constantly longing for a touch, kiss, or fuck.  With the Kail's Teeth I'm on a totally different level.  I fear my Master trying to make me hard, I avoid sexual thoughts, or pursue to please my Master.  I never let myself beg for some kind of sexual expression.  Now it is fully 100% my Master's choice whether I'm going to get hard, be in pain, or get fucked.  I don't necessarily dread these things, but I understand that I have to give my Master these things in order to please him. 

I have accepted my fate as being a slave.  I no longer desire to have an orgasm like I had before.  At day 28 of chastity I feel 100% faith full to my Master and surrendered complete control in my mind.  I fear having an orgasm now.  I forgot what it had felt like to have an orgasm and I no longer desire one.  I just have a longing desire to make my Master happy, even if it causes me pain.  I'm hoping that soon I will be able to please my Master and not even get hard.  Once I can achieve this state of mind, my Master wants to tie me up and play with me, and not have me get hard.  This is his ultimate goal for me to achieve this higher state of mind.  To have enough control over my sexual desires so much that I can beat any external pleasures without any pain.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Fucking Milking

Tonight my Master decided that it was time to milk me again, but this time he bought a fairly large dildo and determined to use it on me.  I was pretty frightened because this dildo was about 2.5" thick.  It was probably the biggest dildo I have ever seen and my Master wanted to fuck me with it.

My master ended up surprised me by tying me up to the end of table face down with my ass hanging exposed and my legs spread apart.  He had never tied me up like this before, I always seemed to be tied up on the bed.  As i laid on the table tied up I knew what was coming, that huge dildo my Master bought was going to fuck me.  I dreaded all week ever since I saw it.  Now the moment had come.

My Master started out with spanking me until I was on the brink of crying and then proceed to fuck me with his large dildo.  It felt so amazing.  I had never had something that big up my ass before.  My master was gentle and rough at the same time.  I was in extacy when he fucked me with that thing.  When he decided I had enough he left me tied up on that table begging him to fuck me more.  I was enraged with hormones.  After two hours of being tied up on a table, desiring to be fucked my Master started to suck on my dick.  I dreaded this because I still had the Kali's Teeth on my dick.  As he sucked the pre-cum from my dick I got hard.  The pain shot through my dick like never before, and once satisfied with the pain, my Master un-tied me.

It was one of the most intense sessions we have ever had.  It made me feel loved, and used.  I wanted to jack off so bad by the end of the night, but every time I would get hard the Kali's Teeth would dig in even deeper, making me change my mind about even attempting such an act without my Master's permission.

Monday, September 26, 2011

KTB Reviews & Warnings

Kali's Teeth Bracelet

Submitted by: JW
I've heard it said that the Kali's Teeth Bracelet is an evil form of chastity, and I suppose a lot depends on where you're coming from. I tend to gravitate more towards the heavier aspects of B & D, so my judgement of the KTB is a bit biased from the outset, but make no mistake: the KTB is NOT a mild form of restraint, punishment, chastity, or what have you. If not respected it can be extremely painful...[more]

Chastity Mansion

Submitted by: badboy
I consider the KTB to be in a league of its own because it is MUCH MORE THAN A CHASTITY DEVICE, the KTB is essentially a very effective ERECTION PUNISHMENT DEVICE. Once the KTB is locked on your cock YOU will do anything to keep your dick completely limp ...
- NO jacking off
- NO looking at porn
- NO reading chastity forums (like this one!)
- NO looking at cute people while walking down the street...[more]


Lock and Keep

Submitted by:  metalfenix
So, after 5 days locked in with the Kali Teeth Bracelet sold by www.malechastitynow.com , it's finally time to write the review of this truly evil device. The seller is really good, I had concerns about delivery, discretion of the package and all that but the owner quickly answered all my doubts by emal, and the paypal system is a quick way to make the payment. He even sent me the size chart to choose carefully the size of the KTB (of course, being a noob I knew that I had to go for the moderate one). took 4 days to make, and 4-5 days to be delivered to my courier service in Florida (I live outside of the US). After two weeks of delivery to my country, I finally have it in my hands...[more]



 Aarkeybabble

Perhaps the most ominous of all chastity devices ever made for a man to wear is the Kali's Teeth Bracelet - known within the chastity community as just by it's initials as the "KTB".

Fortunately, it is no longer in production. And just from looking at the picture I am sure you can see why. This thing wasn't a joke. I can not imagine it being worn for any length of time realistically. It has named after Kālī, the Hindu goddess...[more]


Experience with KTB Chastity Device

Submitted by: Sir Richard I recently obtained and wore a Kali's Teeth Bracelet(KTB), a male chastity device, for periods ranging from a few minutes to 11 continuous days. The model of the device I bought was the "regular" version, since I am average in every relevant dimension.
It was a dangerous mistake to wear the device continuously for 11 days: two weeks after removal of the device, I am still not fully healed and there is a noticeable amount of scar tissue in the places that have healed. The insidious thing is that there was not a significant amount of pain associated with this injury, except occasionally when I obtained a partial erection.
My experience is a warning about the limits of the device. The way the device operates, restricting erection by means of many sharp pins on the inside, is intrinsically hazardous, since erections at times will be involuntary. Use of this device will always entail risk of injury. My experience indicates that the risk may be minimized by observing the following precautions...[more]

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Chastity Candle

The idea of putting the keys into a candle happened today.  After all the testing and giveing me a few days in my Kali's Teeth chastity device my Master had determined to put one key inside a new full candle and hide the other for emergencies.  He heated up the key with a candle, turned the chastity candle upside down and put the hot key in the bottom.  It turned me on when I saw that key disapear into the wax.  I knew that it was going to be a long time before I achieve an orgasim again.

The candle idea was one of the best parts of being dominated by my Master.  He liked the idea of being able to light it when ever he wanted and blowing it out when ever he wanted.  Teasing my mind with the hopes of seeing that key to my chastity device so I could achieve an orgasm.  Another psychological affect of having my release not only be controlled by my Master, but the fact that my release would be an un-knowable date sometime in the future.  My Master could determine the  when the candle gets lower, but for now it's an un-known.  The feeling of not truly knowing when my release it coming makes me feel hopelessly dominated.  I feel as if my penis is no longer my own.  It's just a product of my Master's entertainment and enjoyment.

When I look at the candle and it's not burning it kills me inside.  I still long for that feeling of having an orgasm and can only dream of the day.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Kali's Teeth

I finally received my purchase of Kali's Teeth from the Stock Room.  The device was nothing more than a sex toy.  I could wear it when I was hard but once I was soft it fell right off.  Master thought that it was the biggest waste of money on a Chastity device.  The idea and concept was there but he wanted something a little more reasonable for 24/7 wear.  This product was too heavy, bulky.  It looked cool, had the feeling and did what it should do, it was just not meant for 24/7 wear.

After searching chastity blog and forums on the net I kept reading about how they use to make a true Kali's Teeth that was meant for 24/7 wear.  It was light weight, and one of the ultimate anti-masturbation devices on the market.  Forum after forum I found pictures of this amazing chastity device that was no longer in production.  It broke my heart and my Master's.

My Master wanted this device for me and gave me the task of finding someone to buy the original Kali's Teeth from.  After two days of searching the internet I finally found a site Male Chastity Now that not only produced them, but accessories to go with the chastity device to make it more secure.  
The search engines I was using never really brought up the site, I actually ended up finding the site in a male chastity forum.

I showed my Master that I had completed my task and ordered the device right away.  The producer of this product was extremely friendly and knowledgeable of the product.  It arrived in two business days via USPS.  Once we received the Original Kali's Teeth Male Chastity Device my Master put it on me.  It was easy for my master to put on me.  First he put on the cock ring which fit perfectly and attached the Kali's Teeth with a lock.  It didn't hurt at first, but then I started to get the rush of having this new chastity device on me.  The harder I got the more it hurt.  My Master watched me freeze up in pain while jingling the keys.  The pain was so intense that it brought me to my knees.  Once my hard on went away, everything was fine again.  It was a very unique experience, that I didn't want to have to go through again.

A few days later my Master decided to take off my chastity device to see how it was made.  He found out that the teeth of Kali's Teeth were actually staples from a staple gun.  He wanted this device for 24/7 use for me and wanted me to be able to take a shower with it.  Afraid that the staples might rust, he coated it with some acrylic spray.  With each coat of acrylic it dulled the spikes on the device little by little.  Once my Master decided that it was thick enough he had me put it back on.  I instantly could feel the difference in the teeth.  They were more docile than before when I wasn't hard.  I felt that I could move around more without the fear of my penis getting scratched up just from getting up from a chair or working out.

Later that night my Master wanted to test the chastity device to make sure I couldn't masturbate, or even achieve a full erection without pain.  I was in terrible fear because I didn't want that horrible pain that I had felt before.  My master tied me up and teased me to his heart's desire.  I couldn't fight his persuasions and started to get hard.  As my dick grew so did the pain.  It was just as intense as before but worse because my Master wouldn't stop teasing me.  Sucking on my penis I never felt suck a mix of pleasure and pain.  I couldn't convince myself to get soft.  I was searching in my mind for ways to get my dick soft but I couldn't fight it, I had no control over my erection.  It was my Master's decision and he controlled my dick.

A rude sense of awakening happened that first night.  I realized that this chastity device was different than the others.  Not only did my Master control my orgasms, he now controlled whether or not I could even get hard.  In other chastity devices I could still get hard to a point without any pain what so ever.  Now it was a totally new level of chastity I had never experienced before.  I was excited and scared for what the next couple of months were going to mean for me.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Just the begining

Now I am on day 13, today went well as did this weekend.  My Master has played with my ass for the past three nights and tonight I took his dick again.  He kind of tricked me by getting me drunk and high.  At first it was just kind for play and then he tied me up and just started fucking me.  It was hot, but at the same time I still feel sore from earlier in the week.  He got off that my hole was already stretched out for him.  I felt so violated being tied up and raped.  I liked it, but at the same time it was hot, and made me feel like a slave.  No choice, but to give my hole to my master when he wanted it.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Floating Ideas

Some ideas we have been having for more fun with chastity is to take it to a whole new level.

Burning Love Candle:
We were thinking about taking the keys and putting them in a candle.  We would heat up the keys and stick them into the bottom of a brand new candle.  The keys would stay until they are relieved by the flame.  Now for another rule about the candle...  The candle can only be lit when we are having sex, or sexually messing around.  The longer I let him fuck me the longer the candle burns, the closer I am to being released and able to cum.  Just seeing that candle being lit turns me on. 

Kali’s Teeth Chastity Device:
Today we ordered a new chastity device called Kali's Teeth.  I'm a little frightened because this device is 100% secure.  My Master wanted a more secure device than my custom stainless steel device, he bought me in the past.  It's hard for me to pull out of but it can be done.  My Master is thinking that if he gets the Kali's teeth device for me then he can solve the problem of my erections, his slave masturbating, and desire to become sexually aroused even in chastity.

This device is a bracelet that goes around the shaft of your penis and it has spikes on the inside of it.  Once on  it shouldn't hurt, but once you become aroused the spikes dig into your penis causing you to be in pain.  The pain distracts and teaches the slave not to become aroused unless the Master tells the slave they can become aroused.  It's fool proof and from things I have red online imposable to masturbate in.  I have never masturbated with out my Master's permission ever since we started playing M vs s relationship.

Update:
Today is day 12, I'm in my custom stainless steel chastity device for my second day.  It's a lot more comfortable than my plastic one, but it gives me less room to grow when I get hard.  The cage is only an inch in diameter and my penis is larger than an inch so when i start to get an erection it doesn't grow in length or girth.  My Master likes that it keeps my penis small and unable to extend.  It just swells up, turns a little purple and then goes away.  In this device I have more random erection flashes than in my plastic device.  Maybe because it puts more pressure on my penis than the plastic.  As of yet, i haven't had any discomfort unless I try and get hard, then it kind of feels funny. I have been having so much fun being locked up in chastity for these past 12 days.  I'm thinking that my Master might play with me this weekend, yet sadly it's only Monday.  I'll keep you posted on my progress

Saturday, September 10, 2011

10 Days

Today is the tenth day my master has put me in chastity.  I have been wearing a mass produced plastic peace known as the CB-6000.  I have been in it for ten long days.  I have had no sexual contact with myself or with my master for the entire ten days.  Time gose so slow when your longing to cum, and have some kind of sexual contact.

Tonight my Master let me suck his huge dick and fucked me so hard.  My ass is still soar from taking his huge cock as I write this.  I am his slave so I feel honored to be pleasured by such an amazing cock.  There wasn't much play or spanking tonight considering the chastity device has been tourches enough.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Orgasim Denial Memories

An amazing physiological affect of male chastity is the way human brains remembers the moment while in chastity.  I haven’t read anything else on the internet about other guys having this experience, but it happens to me every time.   If it has happened to you or you have achieved this state of mind before please let me know, I would love to post your experience on my blog for others to read.

When my boyfriend teases me to the point of orgasm, but never lets me achieve an orgasm it turns me on so much.  Once our session is done, and he feels that I have been teased enough, he puts back on the chastity device and I continue the week, or month without orgasm.  During that time I constantly have flashes of what had happened to me.  The memories of the sessions, and the teasing stay with me as a fresh memory that is constantly there in the back of my mind.  When I use to orgasm everyday or ever other day, I would always forget the sex act after orgasm and the memory would just fade away over time.  Now with orgasm denial, I can always remember in extreme detail of every kiss, every touch and every stroke of my cock.  

The memory of the temporary pleasures stays with me until another orgasm denial session starts.  Then the most recent memory replaces the old one.  These memories are strong, enjoying thinking about and sexy.  I never had these echo memories drive me crazy or anything.  It’s just that they are the most detailed memories I have ever encountered in my mind that are pleasurable.  So when my boyfriend teases me and denies me orgasm he knows that I somehow hold on to the memories of the moment, and he tries to make them as memorable as possible.  

When it comes to getting my boyfriend off locked in chastity, the memories come and go as any other memory.  There is no lingering of the memory, or extraordinary detail.  It’s only when my boyfriend gives me all the attention, ties me up, teases me, or removes my chastity device and brings me to the brink of orgasm.  That moment of almost ejaculating somehow engraves that memory and moment in so much detail, it’s almost hard to explain.  The pure frustration, of not being able to ejaculate, having no control just brings the mind to this un-explainable experience of mind and body realization.