Friday, September 21, 2012

Denied - Day 15


The past two days have been intense for me, I have had a lot of alone time at home by myself and decided to indulge in some pornography.  So I have been getting my self all worked up and horny as fuck wanting to jack off so fucking bad.  Even though the temptation keeps running through my mind, I'm some how keeping a solid mind set of not ejaculating.

The other day I got myself so worked up that I tried hooking up with my gay roommate.   I just wanted to suck his dick so fucking bad.  I guess I'm just becoming very desperate in the fact that I need some cock since mine is locked up.

He was siting on the couch watching TV, and I sat down next to him.  I started kissing his neck and then we started making out.  Next thing I know I'm rubbing his hard cock through his pajama pants.  I started to get really hard and my cage filled up.  Then he grabbed for my cock and felt my caged cock longing to be set free.  Instantly when he felt the cage he backed away and we stopped everything.  I think it totally freaked him out. I think he thinks that I'm weird for being into chastity.  It didn't exactly work out as I planned in my head, and afterwords it made me feel like a freak.  I got really depressed afterwords and thought about taking off the CB all together and forgetting this whole experiment.  Being denied like that really brought me back to when I my old master use to play with me in orgasm denial only a few months ago.  The feeling was the same, but the feeling was different, because I know that my roommate doesn't give two shits about me and could care less weather I cum or not.  My ex-Master would deny me on purpose and it would make me feel good. My roommate denied me and made me feel like crap.

Even though my spirits were brought down I'm still horny as fuck and still want to keep this CB on until my new Adopt-a-Cage CB comes.  People just suck sometimes!  I'm still considering him holding my new key for my new CB if he is still up for it which I'm amusing he will since he signed  papers stating that he would.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Day 13

Wow this has been a crazy 13 days.  I have been tracking my hornyness from day one.  I think I'm going to continue doing this and see if there is a pattern in these numbers.  As of now it just kind of looks like a wave, and it seems to be pretty up and down like a rollercoster.

So let me explain the numbers:
Numbers on the Left = "Hornyness"
      0=ejaculation     10="Pure Hornyness Rage!"
Numbers on the Bottom = "Days" 

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Update on the new device:
 I got an E-mail from Adopt-A-Cage today and it said that the new devices are starting to be sent out.
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I'm so excited I can hardly wait.  I have been wearing the CB-6000 this whole time and it's starting to really just become apart of me.  It's uncomfortable as fuck but it's kind of like a new piercing, except it's just a peace of plastic that your carrying around on your cock.

It has been difficult trying not to pull this thing off me and cut the stupid plastic lock, jack off and cum.  Ugggg... to cum!  I forgot what that even feels like, actually it's all I have been thinking about the whole day.  Seriously, nothing else.  The serial numbers on the plastic lock just keep repeating in my head "4674.......4674......4674".  It's really hard holding back from taking this thing off.  Being self locked is a psychological trip.  As much as I want to I'm just trying my hardest to hold back and get this new device before I turn against myself and cum.  I know that the new device can not be pulled off, and I think it's going to be a lot easier psychologically than this thing I have on now.  Just because I know some where in the back of my mind that I have the ability to just slip out and jack off.

I'll keep you guys posted as the days go by, and of course I will let you all know when I get the new device.  I hope soon.

I

Saturday, September 8, 2012

SELF LOCKED

Since it's taking a while to receive my new chastity device from Adopt-A-Cage.com.  I'm going to lock myself up in the CB6000.  I'm hoping to stay locked until I receive the new device, but that could take a while.  Until then I'm looking at a month of being locked up.

I masturbated to some porn on Thursday the 6th, and I was too busy yesterday to do anything so I thought  I should start today.  So as of now it's 48 hrs.  No big deal as of yet, but I'll blog about my experience.  I'm hoping to compare the CB6000 experience to the Adopt-A-Cage experience.

So since it's my first day being locked up I'm going to work out for 2 hrs and get this testosterone flowing.  RAAAaaaa!