The other day I got myself so worked up that I tried hooking up with my gay roommate. I just wanted to suck his dick so fucking bad. I guess I'm just becoming very desperate in the fact that I need some cock since mine is locked up.
He was siting on the couch watching TV, and I sat down next to him. I started kissing his neck and then we started making out. Next thing I know I'm rubbing his hard cock through his pajama pants. I started to get really hard and my cage filled up. Then he grabbed for my cock and felt my caged cock longing to be set free. Instantly when he felt the cage he backed away and we stopped everything. I think it totally freaked him out. I think he thinks that I'm weird for being into chastity. It didn't exactly work out as I planned in my head, and afterwords it made me feel like a freak. I got really depressed afterwords and thought about taking off the CB all together and forgetting this whole experiment. Being denied like that really brought me back to when I my old master use to play with me in orgasm denial only a few months ago. The feeling was the same, but the feeling was different, because I know that my roommate doesn't give two shits about me and could care less weather I cum or not. My ex-Master would deny me on purpose and it would make me feel good. My roommate denied me and made me feel like crap.
Even though my spirits were brought down I'm still horny as fuck and still want to keep this CB on until my new Adopt-a-Cage CB comes. People just suck sometimes! I'm still considering him holding my new key for my new CB if he is still up for it which I'm amusing he will since he signed papers stating that he would.
sounds hot you being in chastity and all. i'd love to be your key holder. i'm a good looking 25 year old, athletic, i can send pics, just email me. i'd shock you when i felt like it, deny you, and make you worship me. :)
ReplyDeleteDear Jason,
ReplyDeleteYour decision to lead a chaste life is wise:
The Value of Continence (Abridged)
By Dr. R. W. Bernard, A.B., M.A., Ph.D.
In view of the richness of the semen in lecithin, cholesterol, phosphorus and other constituents of nervous and brain tissue, it is clear that it is incontinence, or loss of these valuable nerve-nourishing substances which, by promoting under-nutrition, is responsible for disturbed functioning of the nervous system and brain, and never true continence, contrary to the unscientific views of the psychoanalysts.
In the ejaculation of the normal man, about 226 million spermatozoa are given off; these are rich in phosphorized fats (lecithin), cholesterol (the parent-source of sex hormones), nucleoproteins and iron. An ounce of semen is considered to be equal in value to sixty ounces of blood, of which it constitutes an extract of some of its most valuable of constituents, as far as its vitalizing power is concerned.
There is a remarkable similarity of chemical composition between the semen and the central nervous system, both being especially rich in lecithin, cholesterin and phosphorus compounds, which would indicate that seminal emissions withdraw from the body substances necessary for the nutrition of nervous tissues.
Observations of the immediate effects of the sexual orgasm indicate that it temporarily exhausts the nervous system, and when repeated too frequently leads to chronic nerve-weakness (sexual neurasthenia).
Continence is beneficial to the brain (for conserved lecithin from retained semen is a true brain food.) Hence some of the greatest intellectual geniuses in ancient and modern times led continent lives. These include Pythagoras, Plato, Aristotle, Leonardo da Vinci, Spinoza, Newton, Kant, Beethoven, Herbert Spencer, etc.
Convincing evidence of the benefits of continence and that the assumed "sexual necessity" is an illusion is afforded by the study of the debilitating effects of sexual orgasm, which are immediate and striking. Though these have been attributed to purely nervous origin, there can be no doubt that they are chiefly due to the harmful effects of the seminal discharge, which involves a sudden withdrawal from the body of calcium, lecithin and other substances necessary for the normal functioning of the nervous system.
The temporarily exhausting effect of even moderate sexual indulgence is well known, as well as the increased liability to all forms of disease while the individual energies are thus lowered..... Reproduction is the beginning of death."
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Peace & Light,
kearik Sunev