Denied - Day 15

The past two days have been intense for me, I have had a lot of alone time at home by myself and decided to indulge in some pornography.  So I have been getting my self all worked up and horny as fuck wanting to jack off so fucking bad.  Even though the temptation keeps running through my mind, I'm some how keeping a solid mind set of not ejaculating.

The other day I got myself so worked up that I tried hooking up with my gay roommate.   I just wanted to suck his dick so fucking bad.  I guess I'm just becoming very desperate in the fact that I need some cock since mine is locked up.

He was siting on the couch watching TV, and I sat down next to him.  I started kissing his neck and then we started making out.  Next thing I know I'm rubbing his hard cock through his pajama pants.  I started to get really hard and my cage filled up.  Then he grabbed for my cock and felt my caged cock longing to be set free.  Instantly when he felt the cage he backed away and we stopped everything.  I think it totally freaked him out. I think he thinks that I'm weird for being into chastity.  It didn't exactly work out as I planned in my head, and afterwords it made me feel like a freak.  I got really depressed afterwords and thought about taking off the CB all together and forgetting this whole experiment.  Being denied like that really brought me back to when I my old master use to play with me in orgasm denial only a few months ago.  The feeling was the same, but the feeling was different, because I know that my roommate doesn't give two shits about me and could care less weather I cum or not.  My ex-Master would deny me on purpose and it would make me feel good. My roommate denied me and made me feel like crap.

Even though my spirits were brought down I'm still horny as fuck and still want to keep this CB on until my new Adopt-a-Cage CB comes.  People just suck sometimes!  I'm still considering him holding my new key for my new CB if he is still up for it which I'm amusing he will since he signed  papers stating that he would.

Day 13

Wow this has been a crazy 13 days.  I have been tracking my hornyness from day one.  I think I'm going to continue doing this and see if there is a pattern in these numbers.  As of now it just kind of looks like a wave, and it seems to be pretty up and down like a rollercoster.

So let me explain the numbers:
Numbers on the Left = "Hornyness"
      0=ejaculation     10="Pure Hornyness Rage!"
Numbers on the Bottom = "Days" 

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Update on the new device:
 I got an E-mail from Adopt-A-Cage today and it said that the new devices are starting to be sent out.
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I'm so excited I can hardly wait.  I have been wearing the CB-6000 this whole time and it's starting to really just become apart of me.  It's uncomfortable as fuck but it's kind of like a new piercing, except it's just a peace of plastic that your carrying around on your cock.

It has been difficult trying not to pull this thing off me and cut the stupid plastic lock, jack off and cum.  Ugggg... to cum!  I forgot what that even feels like, actually it's all I have been thinking about the whole day.  Seriously, nothing else.  The serial numbers on the plastic lock just keep repeating in my head "4674.......4674......4674".  It's really hard holding back from taking this thing off.  Being self locked is a psychological trip.  As much as I want to I'm just trying my hardest to hold back and get this new device before I turn against myself and cum.  I know that the new device can not be pulled off, and I think it's going to be a lot easier psychologically than this thing I have on now.  Just because I know some where in the back of my mind that I have the ability to just slip out and jack off.

I'll keep you guys posted as the days go by, and of course I will let you all know when I get the new device.  I hope soon.

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Dream Lover 2000

I have been waiting for this product to come out for 2 years.  Following their blog and watching how they were going to design it was tormenting.  It finally came out this year with a price tag of $2,000.00.  I waited for about 6 months and they brought the price down to $1,400.00.  The price did seem a little un-reasonable, but I took into consideration that this is still a startup company and the makers really put a lot of technical thought into making this work.  Even though the price is ridiculous I considered it a donation.

For those of you that don’t know that the Dream Lover is check out their sight or do a search on Dream Lover 2000.  In short it is an attachment for the CB-6000 and other compatible chastity devices.  It is mounts onto the chastity device and electrodes go inside the cage.  There is computer software to control the device and a remote. 

My first impression of the device was fear.  I have always hated getting shocked, and figured this would be   perfect for the ultimate chastity control.  It’s a little tricky to put together and it takes a little bit of tweaking to get everything situated.  So once everything was locked up I held the remote in my hand and pushed the low voltage button. 

It beeped and “Holy Fucking Shit” my cock and balls get a jolt of electricity and my body crunches forward.  I started laughing from the un-expectedness and the intensity of the LOW shock.  I tried to bring myself to push the button again, but I just couldn’t do it. 

I am currently seeking an online key holder through their website.  Apparently a key holder can shock the wearer through their website as long as the wearer is within rage of the USB device that it comes with.  I’m still looking into this to see how it works.  I’ll post more about this product as I explore it more.

PHOTOS COMING SOON

A Male Chastity Perspective

After achieving 29 days without an orgasm I feel that I have beat the sexual daemon within me.  I now see the world in a light.  My Master let me watch some porn and to my amazement I didn't even get hard.  I wasn't even interested in watching it.  Testing my mind I even tried to get into it, but I just couldn't achieve that mind state of thinking pornography was hot.  The funny thing was that when I was watching the pornography I saw these hot guys achieving orgasm after orgasm.  I thought to myself that they were slaves and I myself was free from the longing of orgasm.  My mind filled with happiness and an overwhelming feeling of accomplishment hit me!

I felt as if I had unlocked the secrets of life while watching pornography.  I was watching these guys thinking they were free, when in reality they were all slaves to the male orgasm.  Slaves to their penis's every will.  Me, I was free from the thoughts of having an orgasm anymore.  I didn't desire one, and hoped that I would never have another.  I didn't want to become addicted to the feeling of achieving orgasm.  I liked being chaste, and felt grateful that my Master had let me achieve this amazing state of mind.

As I went about my day I looked at all the guys walking around with their girlfriends.  I thought about all these straight guys were all in slaved by the same ideas and concepts of achieving orgasm.  Everything they did with their girlfriends walking around, holding hands, kissing.  All that they were giving these girls were lies.  All they truly wanted to do was for the girls to help them achieve orgasm.  It was the truth, I saw the snake in the grass all around me.  That sex daemon lurking in the back of all these testosterone loaded guys minds.  I felt so sorry for them, so guilty that I was once like them.  That I was lost in the trance of orgasm.

So, what have I achieved?  Ever since I have become chaste I have been using my time differently.  Where I would usually be watching porn and jacking off, I now had this empty time slot in my daily routine.  I didn't know what to do with it, so I set the outlet to painting.  Painting calmed me down, brought the world down into the minute details of the paint, and the paintbrush.  I never even knew that I was such a horrible painter, but I didn't care I enjoyed it and hope to get better.  Instead of achieving this useless orgasmic state, I now was achieving skills in painting.  After I finish my canvas I hope to start something new themed with my new perspective on life.  I'll get an image of it up once my second master peace is finished.

Emotional Roller Coaster

Today I feel so alone, depressed and like a slave that is forbidden to cum.  I have been trying to convince my Master to let me cum in hopes that it will pick up my mood, but his answer is no.  The candle holding the key to my KTB is still barely even burnt.  It seems that my chance of having an orgasm is not even going to happen this month, next month or even the month after that.

I feel like I'm stuck on an emotional roller coaster.  Some days I feel that somewhere deep inside me I secretly want to shoot the biggest load of my life.  Other days I feel that if I never want to cum again in my life.  It's a constant back and forth within my mind.  Mentally I fell spent, I don't know what is a true thought and what is a sexual thought.  I rarely even think anything is sexy anymore some days, other days I feel enraged with a sexual desire that feels as if it will never be fed. 

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Already feeling extremely depressed, tonight my Master made me do something new for him.  He made me put on a web cam sex show with him.  We broadcasted for about an hour and he showed me off to his internet friends.  He showed them how obedient I was.  He took off the Kali's Teeth on cam but left on the cock ring.  When he tried to jack me off or turn me on I couldn't get hard.  The humiliation of being treated like a slave in-front of strangers made me feel like a dirty slut.  I did what the people in the chat room requested and got my Master off the way they wanted me too.  When he came on my face I thought the himulation was over until they made me eat my Masters cum off my face.  Everyone was calling me a dirty slut and told me that I was never aloud to cum again.  It was a very different experience, and my Master wants to do it again some time soon.  He said that he wants to make money off of me by performing for these people on webcam.  I have never felt so "used" before until tonight, I want to just cry my brains out, but I know that my Master wouldn't have that.  The psychological affects going on in my mind from being a slave are digging holes in my soul.  I am at a breaking point.  They say that there are five stages of grieving: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance.  I would have to say that I'm at the end of the line.  I keep getting stuck between depression and acceptance.  I just don't know if my mind will let me accept the truth, that I am not in controll of my own penis, or even sexual desires.

Mind Set

I have been in this Kail's Teeth Chastity Device for about a week now and haven't cum in 28 days.   I have noticed some  psychological affects of becoming chaste.  I have had to re-program my brain in ways to keep myself from having sexual thoughts.  Every time I would have some kind of sexual thought I would get hard and the pain from the chastity device would stop my thoughts.  I now feel that only after wearing the device for a week I have more control over my sexual thoughts.

With other chastity devices that don't work with the mind like the **-6000 or  silicon Euro chastity device I become a slave that longs to be released from chastity.  I become a sex puppy that is constantly longing for a touch, kiss, or fuck.  With the Kail's Teeth I'm on a totally different level.  I fear my Master trying to make me hard, I avoid sexual thoughts, or pursue to please my Master.  I never let myself beg for some kind of sexual expression.  Now it is fully 100% my Master's choice whether I'm going to get hard, be in pain, or get fucked.  I don't necessarily dread these things, but I understand that I have to give my Master these things in order to please him. 

I have accepted my fate as being a slave.  I no longer desire to have an orgasm like I had before.  At day 28 of chastity I feel 100% faith full to my Master and surrendered complete control in my mind.  I fear having an orgasm now.  I forgot what it had felt like to have an orgasm and I no longer desire one.  I just have a longing desire to make my Master happy, even if it causes me pain.  I'm hoping that soon I will be able to please my Master and not even get hard.  Once I can achieve this state of mind, my Master wants to tie me up and play with me, and not have me get hard.  This is his ultimate goal for me to achieve this higher state of mind.  To have enough control over my sexual desires so much that I can beat any external pleasures without any pain.

Fucking Milking

Tonight my Master decided that it was time to milk me again, but this time he bought a fairly large dildo and determined to use it on me.  I was pretty frightened because this dildo was about 2.5" thick.  It was probably the biggest dildo I have ever seen and my Master wanted to fuck me with it.

My master ended up surprised me by tying me up to the end of table face down with my ass hanging exposed and my legs spread apart.  He had never tied me up like this before, I always seemed to be tied up on the bed.  As i laid on the table tied up I knew what was coming, that huge dildo my Master bought was going to fuck me.  I dreaded all week ever since I saw it.  Now the moment had come.

My Master started out with spanking me until I was on the brink of crying and then proceed to fuck me with his large dildo.  It felt so amazing.  I had never had something that big up my ass before.  My master was gentle and rough at the same time.  I was in extacy when he fucked me with that thing.  When he decided I had enough he left me tied up on that table begging him to fuck me more.  I was enraged with hormones.  After two hours of being tied up on a table, desiring to be fucked my Master started to suck on my dick.  I dreaded this because I still had the Kali's Teeth on my dick.  As he sucked the pre-cum from my dick I got hard.  The pain shot through my dick like never before, and once satisfied with the pain, my Master un-tied me.

It was one of the most intense sessions we have ever had.  It made me feel loved, and used.  I wanted to jack off so bad by the end of the night, but every time I would get hard the Kali's Teeth would dig in even deeper, making me change my mind about even attempting such an act without my Master's permission.

KTB Reviews & Warnings

Kali's Teeth Bracelet

Submitted by: JW
I've heard it said that the Kali's Teeth Bracelet is an evil form of chastity, and I suppose a lot depends on where you're coming from. I tend to gravitate more towards the heavier aspects of B & D, so my judgement of the KTB is a bit biased from the outset, but make no mistake: the KTB is NOT a mild form of restraint, punishment, chastity, or what have you. If not respected it can be extremely painful...[more]

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Chastity Mansion

Submitted by: badboy
I consider the KTB to be in a league of its own because it is MUCH MORE THAN A CHASTITY DEVICE, the KTB is essentially a very effective ERECTION PUNISHMENT DEVICE. Once the KTB is locked on your cock YOU will do anything to keep your dick completely limp ...
- NO jacking off
- NO looking at porn
- NO reading chastity forums (like this one!)
- NO looking at cute people while walking down the street...[more]

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Lock and Keep

Submitted by:  metalfenix
So, after 5 days locked in with the Kali Teeth Bracelet sold by www.malechastitynow.com , it's finally time to write the review of this truly evil device. The seller is really good, I had concerns about delivery, discretion of the package and all that but the owner quickly answered all my doubts by emal, and the paypal system is a quick way to make the payment. He even sent me the size chart to choose carefully the size of the KTB (of course, being a noob I knew that I had to go for the moderate one). took 4 days to make, and 4-5 days to be delivered to my courier service in Florida (I live outside of the US). After two weeks of delivery to my country, I finally have it in my hands...[more]

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 Aarkeybabble

Perhaps the most ominous of all chastity devices ever made for a man to wear is the Kali's Teeth Bracelet - known within the chastity community as just by it's initials as the "KTB".

Fortunately, it is no longer in production. And just from looking at the picture I am sure you can see why. This thing wasn't a joke. I can not imagine it being worn for any length of time realistically. It has named after Kālī, the Hindu goddess...[more]

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Experience with KTB Chastity Device

Submitted by: Sir Richard I recently obtained and wore a Kali's Teeth Bracelet(KTB), a male chastity device, for periods ranging from a few minutes to 11 continuous days. The model of the device I bought was the "regular" version, since I am average in every relevant dimension.
It was a dangerous mistake to wear the device continuously for 11 days: two weeks after removal of the device, I am still not fully healed and there is a noticeable amount of scar tissue in the places that have healed. The insidious thing is that there was not a significant amount of pain associated with this injury, except occasionally when I obtained a partial erection.
My experience is a warning about the limits of the device. The way the device operates, restricting erection by means of many sharp pins on the inside, is intrinsically hazardous, since erections at times will be involuntary. Use of this device will always entail risk of injury. My experience indicates that the risk may be minimized by observing the following precautions...[more]

Kali's Teeth

I finally received my purchase of Kali's Teeth from the Stock Room.  The device was nothing more than a sex toy.  I could wear it when I was hard but once I was soft it fell right off.  Master thought that it was the biggest waste of money on a Chastity device.  The idea and concept was there but he wanted something a little more reasonable for 24/7 wear.  This product was too heavy, bulky.  It looked cool, had the feeling and did what it should do, it was just not meant for 24/7 wear.

After searching chastity blog and forums on the net I kept reading about how they use to make a true Kali's Teeth that was meant for 24/7 wear.  It was light weight, and one of the ultimate anti-masturbation devices on the market.  Forum after forum I found pictures of this amazing chastity device that was no longer in production.  It broke my heart and my Master's.

My Master wanted this device for me and gave me the task of finding someone to buy the original Kali's Teeth from.  After two days of searching the internet I finally found a site Male Chastity Now that not only produced them, but accessories to go with the chastity device to make it more secure.  
The search engines I was using never really brought up the site, I actually ended up finding the site in a male chastity forum.

I showed my Master that I had completed my task and ordered the device right away.  The producer of this product was extremely friendly and knowledgeable of the product.  It arrived in two business days via USPS.  Once we received the Original Kali's Teeth Male Chastity Device my Master put it on me.  It was easy for my master to put on me.  First he put on the cock ring which fit perfectly and attached the Kali's Teeth with a lock.  It didn't hurt at first, but then I started to get the rush of having this new chastity device on me.  The harder I got the more it hurt.  My Master watched me freeze up in pain while jingling the keys.  The pain was so intense that it brought me to my knees.  Once my hard on went away, everything was fine again.  It was a very unique experience, that I didn't want to have to go through again.

A few days later my Master decided to take off my chastity device to see how it was made.  He found out that the teeth of Kali's Teeth were actually staples from a staple gun.  He wanted this device for 24/7 use for me and wanted me to be able to take a shower with it.  Afraid that the staples might rust, he coated it with some acrylic spray.  With each coat of acrylic it dulled the spikes on the device little by little.  Once my Master decided that it was thick enough he had me put it back on.  I instantly could feel the difference in the teeth.  They were more docile than before when I wasn't hard.  I felt that I could move around more without the fear of my penis getting scratched up just from getting up from a chair or working out.

Later that night my Master wanted to test the chastity device to make sure I couldn't masturbate, or even achieve a full erection without pain.  I was in terrible fear because I didn't want that horrible pain that I had felt before.  My master tied me up and teased me to his heart's desire.  I couldn't fight his persuasions and started to get hard.  As my dick grew so did the pain.  It was just as intense as before but worse because my Master wouldn't stop teasing me.  Sucking on my penis I never felt suck a mix of pleasure and pain.  I couldn't convince myself to get soft.  I was searching in my mind for ways to get my dick soft but I couldn't fight it, I had no control over my erection.  It was my Master's decision and he controlled my dick.

A rude sense of awakening happened that first night.  I realized that this chastity device was different than the others.  Not only did my Master control my orgasms, he now controlled whether or not I could even get hard.  In other chastity devices I could still get hard to a point without any pain what so ever.  Now it was a totally new level of chastity I had never experienced before.  I was excited and scared for what the next couple of months were going to mean for me.

Just the begining

Now I am on day 13, today went well as did this weekend.  My Master has played with my ass for the past three nights and tonight I took his dick again.  He kind of tricked me by getting me drunk and high.  At first it was just kind for play and then he tied me up and just started fucking me.  It was hot, but at the same time I still feel sore from earlier in the week.  He got off that my hole was already stretched out for him.  I felt so violated being tied up and raped.  I liked it, but at the same time it was hot, and made me feel like a slave.  No choice, but to give my hole to my master when he wanted it.

Orgasim Denial Memories

An amazing physiological affect of male chastity is the way human brains remembers the moment while in chastity.  I haven’t read anything else on the internet about other guys having this experience, but it happens to me every time.   If it has happened to you or you have achieved this state of mind before please let me know, I would love to post your experience on my blog for others to read.

When my boyfriend teases me to the point of orgasm, but never lets me achieve an orgasm it turns me on so much.  Once our session is done, and he feels that I have been teased enough, he puts back on the chastity device and I continue the week, or month without orgasm.  During that time I constantly have flashes of what had happened to me.  The memories of the sessions, and the teasing stay with me as a fresh memory that is constantly there in the back of my mind.  When I use to orgasm everyday or ever other day, I would always forget the sex act after orgasm and the memory would just fade away over time.  Now with orgasm denial, I can always remember in extreme detail of every kiss, every touch and every stroke of my cock.  

The memory of the temporary pleasures stays with me until another orgasm denial session starts.  Then the most recent memory replaces the old one.  These memories are strong, enjoying thinking about and sexy.  I never had these echo memories drive me crazy or anything.  It’s just that they are the most detailed memories I have ever encountered in my mind that are pleasurable.  So when my boyfriend teases me and denies me orgasm he knows that I somehow hold on to the memories of the moment, and he tries to make them as memorable as possible.  

When it comes to getting my boyfriend off locked in chastity, the memories come and go as any other memory.  There is no lingering of the memory, or extraordinary detail.  It’s only when my boyfriend gives me all the attention, ties me up, teases me, or removes my chastity device and brings me to the brink of orgasm.  That moment of almost ejaculating somehow engraves that memory and moment in so much detail, it’s almost hard to explain.  The pure frustration, of not being able to ejaculate, having no control just brings the mind to this un-explainable experience of mind and body realization.

How I started Male Chastity

There is only one way to start and that is dedication.  I’m not going to lie and tell you it’s easy.  Let’s face it most guys with a good sex drive are addicted to ejaculating.  I found out that most of my gay friends watch porn on a regular basis and are jacking off to it.  It almost seems ill-logical to not masturbate sometimes.  We do it for many reasons.  I use to do it because I was horny, but most of the time it’s because we are board, and lonely.  

Trying to stop masturbating is not an easy feat for a guy, especially when he has been doing it for so long.  It’s more of a habit than an addiction, in my opinion.  I read somewhere that you can break a habit by not performing the action for two weeks.  This isn’t true when it comes to masturbating and ejaculating.  It’s still on your mind after those two weeks and many weeks after.  So the question for me was how can I stop, and is it even possible?   This crossed my mind many times, but I would never dare to “dare” myself to see how long I could go without it. 

Searching the internet and looking for toys to enhance my sex life with my boyfriend I came across a chastity belt.  I didn’t know what it was or how it was used, but had the basic idea from a few minutes of research.  It sounded fun, and exciting.

I talked about the idea with my boyfriend.  He liked the idea, but only if I was the one in the chastity belt.  I agreed and purchased my first chastity belt, the C*-3000.   We got it in the mail, I put it on and day one started.  It wasn’t too bad, I was just more aware of my penis all day every day, and constantly was thinking about getting this piece of plastic off my dick.  By the end of the week I was so horny I was begging my boyfriend to get me off.  Even though we agreed on two weeks, that night I shot the biggest load I have ever shot my life.  It felt so euphoric; I didn’t know an orgasm could even feel that good.  

After that euphoric orgasm we decided to go two weeks.  The whole time I had my chastity belt on I got my boyfriend off during the two weeks.  It drove me crazy with hormones and I was consumed with wanting to get off.  Hoping and waiting for that one day to come when I could experience an orgasm again.  The desire in our relationship rose greatly.  There was a new connection between us, a new trust.  My boyfriend would tease me with the keys to my chastity belt, and promise that I was going to shoot a huge load at the end of the two weeks.  Every two weeks for about two months I would get off, that is until we decided that I could prolong my orgasms longer.